I’ve had a chipped tooth for god only knows, a while. Thankfully Covered California insurance allows my ability to carry my dentist in my pocket. Dr. Toothpick. And, I feel kinda cool having it hang out of the corner of my lip. Makes me remember how as a kid if we had a scar it looked kinda cool, or a cast to sign, extra cool. I always wanted braces, and hear that’s a common odd wish we had as youngsters. (Oh my god, I just typed “youngsters..” ) I’d pull back the ends of a paperclip to make a kind of retainer, and gained some cuts along the way.
As an adult, not the same picture. We don’t want braces, or any kind of dental work. A chipped tooth, means, $$ and $$=eh, doesn’t hurt that much, it’s not so bad. To me the “eh it’s not so bad” has been okay, except that it doesn’t go away just because you can’t afford to fix it. Mid life is sort of that way. You can’t rewind the aging process, and you have to figure out while you’re in the “eh it’s not so bad” phase to soak it up, because each day is a new one to a deeper, older and more used way of life less new. Anybody else drive with the gas light on? Same concept. It doesn’t fix itself and I think I’ve learned by now, after many trial and errors. More so the errors. So now I drive with an emergency gas can in the trunk of my car.
While we enter into this next layer of quarantine, where’s your gas gage? Is it on empty and how does one re-fill it? Are there ways we can all tap into resources to ignite, refresh, refill, and fix?
I’ve always said, “we’ll see”. People that know me, know that. And while “we’ll see” may seem like a pause button, it’s actually a green light. It means propel forward however you can, releasing expectation. It’s the yes to the should, the filler to the empty, and filler to the chip.
New perspectives:
“Alexa, will there be a prince on a horse galloping into the picture?”
Alexa: “We’ll see.”
“Alexa, if I ask my boss for a raise, is that a good move?
Alexa: “We’ll see.”
“Alexa, is “we’ll see” supposed to be a comfort or not?”
Alexa: “We’ll see.”
So you see, we’ll see’s, are hopeful insights.
Be where you are. Because not knowing sometimes is okay too.
You’ll see.